Body And The Beast

Ok, the title is a tad pretentious but for many people their mind really is a ‘Beast’. Not enough of us have a good connection between our mind and our body (and our soul, if you’ll allow me to be ‘hippie’ about it). Having battled EDNOS I am all too aware of the difficulties of developing a good, healthy mind-body-soul connection. Too many of us are too busy looking at the glossy pages of magazines, watching the diet food adverts and doubting ourselves to take the time to say ‘I am enough’.

It would take an incredibly confident (well, cocky really) person to stand infront of the mirror every day and say ‘I love the way that I look, I love the person that I am and I wouldn’t change anything about myself’. I certainly don’t do that every day, at best I may say ‘Yeah, you’re all right’, and I am happy with that. To be content is all I search for in life and if I can get to a point where I say ‘I am enough’ every day-great! It’s not a place that many people get to in life, a sad- but true- fact. Without getting too heavy, I still see an OT who gave me support in the depths of my EDNOS as well as the continued support that I get now. In one of my first ever sessions with her, she suggested that I take up yoga to connect my mind and my body. ‘So Hum’ is a phrase, used in yoga, which she always comes back to. It simply means ‘I am that’. The phrase has stuck with me and it is what I come back to when I’m doubting myself- I am that, I am enough.

Everyone has bad days. It’s not exclusive to those suffering from depression, eating disorders and anxiety disorders (obviously it is slightly different for those suffering from mental health problems). So if you are throwing yourself a pity party one day- that’s fine- just remember…So Hum.

In my, ever so humble and definitely non professional, opinion if we were all content with ourselves (mind, body and soul) the world would be a far happier place. Frankly, it would be awful if everyone loved himself or herself more than anything else and it would be a terrible boring world if we all wished each other well. Everyone has a bit of a ‘dark side’ and we should embrace it. Don’t necessarily let it in, but accept it. Part of my dark side is that I am a terrible gossip and that’s fine. I can acknowledge that and make a conscious decision to not let it in (well not all the time anyway). You are who you are and that is enough.

Oh dear, that got a bit deep. I promise I’ll post something a little ‘lighter’ later!

xo